i didn't know decorating 1st ave was kinda fun! enjoyed myself. i was really happy the whole day today! ok kind of luh. my B-A-L-L-S~~~ ok nvm. anyway, i think it's because i had enough of sleep? thats why im more active. doing childish tihngs at 1st ave. haha. also i bought myself a mango tank top. haha. made me happier.

until on the way backk.....
i hate it when you start your long winded-ness. i

was tryin to control all the way home. long ago, i've been telling you everything, all my stupid stories, all my views, everything. now, the one thing i need to say out, i can't. i can't tell a story about you to you. haha. doesn't make sense. so much of these shit happening around me. i just wanna ignore. i can't be bother to care anymore.

i couldn't take it anymore. i need to get a drink. thought it will cool me down. but it only made me wanna pee. too much water. anyway, i decided to walk home. walked half way already, changed my mind, take a bus back instead. haha. cause it was kinda creepy.

very pai sey, everyone at the bustop and those people waiting for the bus at the interchange knew i was like troubled! coz i tried to hide my face, away from the crowd, watery eyes mah. actually, i was sitting at the interchange. didn't wanna go home. but there were too much "dark chocolate m&ms" walking around. so "walked" home.

at that point, i really wished i was a guy. ok what a weird thing to wish for but really. 12) guys ah..go toliet damn easy lah can. puhhhh. 2) best of all, guys... can go to the park and relax without having to worry about flashers or creepy people or rapist!

i really miss being outside. the cool breeze. i hate going back home so early. i hate that i don't have my midnight brother anymore. i hate the white sands macdonald! why aren't they 24 hrs!
if it's 24 hrs, im so gonna sit outside till morning luh.

p/s : i feel so bad. ask people go get a drink when they're going home. and worst of all, i never really say anything! so sorry! pai sey pai sey..

p/s p/s : right now, who can i really talk to. tonight i finally understand when people says they don't know who they can approach. seriously. like no one. no one fits the bill.

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